Heart of Clouds

by Adrienne Wilson

(for Walter Halsey Davis, of the Santa Barbara Writers Conference)

*page 94, in my novel Heart of Clouds


Teenie leaves Mr. Honeygartens, walking her bike home, watching the sunset. Sad at what Mr. Honeygarten told her, about Claire.

VOICEOVER as Teenie looks out to the island, Honeygarten


She is with me every single day, Teenie. Every single day. And you see my dear, this is why I use her spoons as I do. I feel that when I stir the tea, it’s almost like she is here with me.

*establishing, love lives forever, even after loss


Teenie wants to talk to her mother, but she is passed out, rolled into a ball on the couch. Teenie spends a long time looking at her mother’s face, which is relaxed and beautiful in sleep.



It’s been so long since I have seen you smile, Mom.


Devlin kisses her note to him as he falls asleep with it tucked safely in his breast pocket, against his heart.

Devlin tosses and turns in sleep, dreaming of a squadron of sea turtles who have come to take him to the sea kingdom. Tut, the largest of these, is weeping. Devlin sees the tears in his eyes.

Photo by Richard Segal on Pexels.com


You will ride me, Devlin. I shall take you to the source of the Wave.

Tut moves so that Devlin can climb aboard his giant ancient shell, as the other turtles in the squadron watch. Devlin hold’s Tut’s ancient flippers as the other turtles form a giant flotilla that the whales and dolphins also join.


One of the blue whales swims up close to TUT, with Devlin aboard. He communicates with his eyes, to Devlin, Devlin can understand through the looks in their eyes to each other.


The sea gods are angry Devlin because people have not shown them respect.


Devlin awakes again with a start from his dream. He thinks he sees Tut in the tree limbs outside his window, he’s tired and wants to go back to sleep again, but he is back in the seadream. Tut awaits him, beckoning with a flipper. They press on through the sea, and the Orcas have joined them. The sea turns a sickening color of green, purple yellow and magenta. Devlin sees hundreds of the plastic shoes floating in a vortex. Tut halts the other sea animals with his flipper, as Devlin sits up, astride him. The Orcas swim away in disgust as the sea turned blackish green.

(Devlin wakes up and feels for Teenies note. Sigh of relief. Rubs his chest at his heart.)


Devlin you are the last boy on earth who can understand the sea gods wrath, because you know the language of the air


Does Teenie know how to speak my language?


You could teach her Devlin Underwood. She knows how to speak the language of the heart Devlin.


The language of the heart is a very, very old language Devlin. Some people said that the trees taught it to the human race, or the clouds, or the sun and moon. Some say it comes from walking alone for miles in the mountains and others say it comes from gazing into a flower, or sometimes the eyes of another human being.


Tut why didn’t the Orcas speak?


Their hearts are broken


Grandma Jess bustles in the kitchen cooking breakfast for Devlin, Oatmeal with raisins and brown sugar.


Did you sleep well Devlin?


Not exactly Grandma

I had a very strange dream about the Wave


Your grandfather is still asleep, Devlin, but I’m sure he’d like to hear about it when he wakes up.


(eating the oatmeal)

I’m going to the beach today, right after I finish this. I want to work on the seahut some more.


Photo by RODNAE Productions on Pexels.com


How has it been coming along?


It’s getting there slowly Grandma


Well, you run along then, Dev.


(carries bowl to sink, and washes it off, then kisses his grandmother on the cheek)


(eyes twinkling at her grandson)

I think Grandpa Jess has a surprise in mind for you, Devlin


He does?


(smiling as Devlin leaves, warmly)

*chapter “Hearts” in my novel Heart of Clouds, to page 101. Adaptation of book to film.

Ecopsychology #Diagnostics #Genogram

So, I want to talk about the way I am using all I was taught up at Pacifica Graduate Institute in tandem with experiences as an Intern on a case by case basis. But since we are all stuck in this miasma of year 2022, why not do the research and try and figure out a treatment plan that is for the WEB. What I am most interested in, is when kids have access to the WEB itself, so we are using the genogram for that, and then using concepts from Depth and Ecopsychology. So back to the timeline with Academic questions, and proofs.

So, looking at the history of the computer via Wikipedia.

Using this date along the genogram.


So from personal experience working at a newspaper, in the 1980’s, by the late 80’s we are all familiar with computer systems and they are part of our jobs. My guess is that the men have them for “toys” at home? That can afford them. Across the entire globe. So in glancing through the above article, for me 1995 is the year I actually buy one. I will use it to learn to write papers and it is pretty simple. This is the first one I ever saw that was “Fun” and in the Art Department of the paper, so 1984, and it was an Apple, with fun fonts and things.

So let’s assume that many Dads work with them, in the year that is 1984, and they are being used at home for “fun” by parents? But what year do the kids start using them.

Let’s talk about the father’s childhood, in say, 1964, versus the child born into this world at 1984. Of course Dad will teach his kids how to use one? How much access to information did they have? Was it too much, for someone so young? That is how we want to think about this. Just as a diagnostic.

From the Wikipedia ”

In 2001, 125 million personal computers were shipped in comparison to 48,000 in 1977. More than 500 million PCs were in use in 2002 and one billion personal computers had been sold worldwide since mid-1970s till this time. Of the latter figure, 75 percent were professional or work related, while the rest sold for personal or home use. About 81.5 percent of PCs shipped had been desktop computers, 16.4 percent laptops and 2.1 percent servers. United States had received 38.8 percent (394 million) of the computers shipped, Europe 25 percent and 11.7 percent had gone to Asia-Pacific region, the fastest-growing market as of 2002.[73] Almost half of all the households in Western Europe had a personal computer and a computer could be found in 40 percent of homes in United Kingdom, compared with only 13 percent in 1985.[74] The third quarter of 2008 marked the first time laptops outsold desktop PCs in the United States.[75]

As of June 2008, the number of personal computers worldwide in use hit one billion. Mature markets like the United States, Western Europe and Japan accounted for 58 percent of the worldwide installed PCs. About 180 million PCs (16 percent of the existing installed base) were expected to be replaced and 35 million to be dumped into landfill in 2008. The whole installed base grew 12 percent annually.[76][77]

I am very concerned about the kids, so let’s watch a video. This is a mother talking about losing her son in the teen years. I want to trace the timeline of how the DSM changed.

So we are going to look at the Wiki on what her son was diagnosed with, and we are going to look at the criteria for.

We can see that 1995 is a key date so questions along that timeline really matter. How many young kids (especially boys) were medicated. This was one of my teachers up at Pacifica on all that.

So as I looked at the pictures of the emo heart, and because I was an Art & Narrative modality when working with kids in the years 1996—-2003, at Family Service Agency and other places here in town, and because I have many concerns about what might have happened to an entire generation?

The timeline is prescient, because at WordPress, the founder was born in 1984. The thing for me, is that I was never a tech wizard like all of you. So you are the kids of those fathers, in 1984 and on down the line. I have looked at a few vids of the metaverse concept, and that is the world being created. By your generation. You are really smart, and “logos” is what all of you have in spades.

So the childhoods of 1984, along this line:

1922————————————–1984——1994 (cognition age ten)– 2022

What 1994 looked like, for the little kids who were 10 that year.

Depth Psychology Assessment

You can listen to this, about 5 minutes long read by Remy in a female voice. Or you can watch and read.

In Family Systems Theory, we can use a tool called the Genogram across a time line for assessment. It’s one of the things I learned up at Pacifica Graduate Institute during my training in 1996. We use it as a tool to look into “history” of the client, so, it is a way of looking at the presenting problem and getting back story on the Family. So over the first few sessions we are able to get a really clear picture of who the person is. In this respect, let’s use it to look at kids across a spectrum of child development across time. So, let’s just use 100 years as a timeline.


In 1922, children basically had parents who were watching movies, and they were listening to the radio. They listened to records, as well. For toys the kids didn’t have the kinds of things they have now. We can use an old Warner Brothers clip, to look at say, kids way back when. In my grandparent’s era, and the kids “playing.”

Let’s fast forward, because – how kids are looking at “outside world” or cultural surround, is that they are looking at character studies on film in the movies! In the characters of “live humans” and they were probably taken to the movies, to see this on the big screen, as an amusement, or a treat. Kids depicted way back then would have been many parents of the kids during the post WW2 Baby Boom – who give birth into the late 50’s and early 60’s, across the globe. By 1960, most households have access to a television. In California, there were 13 channels at that time. Let’s break the genogram into segments of time.


Early color television from the 1950’s. We are still looking at the “human figure” – you can also see early Ed Sullivan.

People are going to the movies, and watching shows on TV. It’s 1954. Let’s fast forward to 1974 along the timeline.


Piaget refers in his theories on Child Development, that the child has up to age nine – the period of “imaginal” thinking. We will be looking into what has been in the cultural surround in later decades soon. In the writer’s own childhood, there were cartoons on television in the era that is 1960’s, and we are also watching Disney Films as character studies. For me this began at “Fantasia” so we are looking at TV as “spectacle” and also art. On something like 13 channels. Computers will not become “toys” for my generation, but by 1984, they will be, in the cultural surround. It was Robert Sardello’s work, when I was up at Pacifica, that sparked a paper for Dr. Mary Watkins.

I went to buy a first computer at Circuit City, in 1995, strictly for Graduate School because it would be easier to write papers, and Apple Performa was what I got at a now defunct store then called Circuit City. I was struck by the wall of images presented to me, and I saw my first shooter game? So I wrote about that on child development for Dr. Watlkin’s class. So let’s think of this as “research.”

In the paper, I quoted Sardello in a piece he wrote for the NYT in 1984, on sociopathy that might result in children if computers were all they had? I wrote about that earlier, so you can read me on that here https://valentinebonnaire.com/2009/03/13/ecopsychology-assessment-children-sardello-research-from-america-in-the-wake-of-germanys-tragedy/.

So let’s fast forward now on that genogram.


Let’s take a look at what Fantasia became in that childhood, with birth date 1997 as global.

Let’s use this show, and compare with the first clip of “Spanky and Our Gang” from the top clip. We are looking at the same thing, but, the human figure is shown in the sky as a babyfaced sun. Listen to how the “sounds” are shown, and how the cartoon figures “play” as learning as well as look at the sets. It’s a very different world, isn’t it? Then we are going to fast forward to the “games” they will play in year 2007. Piaget felt that at age 10, children reach “cognition.”

Let’s look at the games the kids play in 2007, based on the next clip. we can see how different the toys became, after 1984.

So, this sort of game? Is what the kids played at ‘cognition” — for my generation, at age 10, it was board games. These had not been invented yet. As we think of the school shootings, such as the one that happened at UCSB, another of my Alma Maters my interest as a scholar is to return to Sardello’s posit. Anyway, what I want to do, is help solve this. If in the top clip here, we have a tele-baby in the sky, as a pre-verbal child “watching” — we are not seeing a human figure. We have “blob’ animations that talk baby talk, in a sense. They present as in a kind of space ship as earth house. When clips are shown of actual children at a beach playing – that is “reality” for the kids. So in the second clip, we are looking at what the kids might play as games, in 2007. At age ten.

Why I used the genogram?

Show differences along a timeline.

Questions might be:

For this generation – Can they hear or see “the natural world.”

Were they diagnosed and put on medications simply because of the world they were born into?

If so, for the child at 2007 who is ten, let’s give a birthdate of 1997, and then insert 9/11 as outer real life cultural surround. They are three to four years old, that year. So, this is me in 2014 talking about a treatment plan we could build, that uses Art and Narrative Therapy using the web itself.

Assessment tools for Depth Psychology and Ecopsychology

Let me show you some images. I began to be concerned about some of the art I was seeing in the web, because of the three colors in art related to images of the emo heart.

using word clouds to assess and treat for meaning, as reality testing

Jung considered colors along a spectrum as indicative of the state of psyche with black and red, along the spectrum as indicators of a very deep depression. But what concerns me most in these, is that I cannot see the eyes or the mouths, so I took some screenshots of the art I was looking at in a post 9/11 climate.

With the recent news stories about people crashing while driving on “auto pilot” in cars, I am wondering if they do not realize they are even driving.

It could be that a generation of children raised on these screens, with the intense focus at the screen, and the prescripted games do not have reality testing. When I say this, what I mean is that they may not be able to differentiate between what is “real” and not real.

For instance, on television, in the advertising, we see animations paired with live people as a kind of cute justaposition. But, we need to consider the cultural surround of a generation raised on games in the box.

Take a look at these images and it is very concerning. Yesterday I took some screen shots of this and wonder is it possible that a generation raised on boxes, could have eye problems and cannot see? When I have searched it is so dark, for them. So I began to try and understand about the eyes. many times the eyes are black holes. My sense of this, “can’t see.”

Now as a therapist working with a client, in Art and Narrative, you ask them, what does this mean? So, I once came up with a concept called The Alchemy Project and I made a blog post on that here in WordPress, but how we might something like a treatment or a cure? Well, we need to see what these things mean, and the only way to do that is to open up a dialogue about that. The blogs are a blank slate, where people might draw, or use collage to create a reality based self, by also using Narrative, or words. I have an idea that we might also be able to use the word collage tools to make an image, Of the words. That they might use when taliking? So I am going to try and find one and run my text in this post through it.

Thank you WordPress and ma.tt for making this tool, I really mean that.

Designing a Treatment Plan #DepthPsychology #Ecopsychology for use in WEB

Writing up a continuation of my research published here in WordPress as Valentine Bonnaire. My blog started I think in 2007 and I had an established nom de plume already as the above, in the web, so at first I was really happy to find WordPress, but in the time I was writing, how WordPress has developed has just amazed me. I knew at the time I was researching that Facebook, WordPress, and Twitter could be used. But, now I would not choose Twitter based on censorship issues. I found both Facebook and Twitter because I was here in WordPress, to begin with.

Because I once worked for a Newspaper for 20 years, and am a graduate of The University of California Class of 1984, Art History and Pacifica Graduate Institute, Class of 1995 Counseling Psychology, Emphasis Depth Psychology I have written and developed some interventions to news stories, and problems I have seen from my perspective.

WordPress has been one of the most magnificent things I have ever seen, and ma.tt, to have created something like you have done, it is hard to explain. So 1995 was the year I bought my first “home” computer – an Apple Performa. I had used computers at work for years, but not had one at home. The day I bought it, I was standing in Circuit City here in town and saw something which later developed into a paper I wrote for Dr. Mary Watkins, on child development and pre-scripted games in our first year at school. It was only because I had WordPress, that I was able to write and research on this topic with complete ease in the years post 2007.

So, in the course of the last few days I have been thinking of both you Matt and also Mark and talked about both of you over in Facebook, because, both places are “real” in the sense that in FB I can attach to old colleagues and friends, and here I can speak with so much ease, and also link to things. Then I can cut and paste over in FB, my own link. So the two of you were born in 1984, and what you know about the world of computers is well, a result of what both of you designed?

I had a typewriter when I went to UCSB. That long ago. So, as I can write and illustrate so easily in here, the world of WordPress, well, let’s get going on stopping some problems we are having with Mental Health. I’m going to write up some things here in the blog and take them over to FB, as I go. It is a new treatment paradigm, that I want to give to William at Noozhawk, and I recently was able to watch him speak in Youtube. I loved that he said WordPress had approached him because of his awards, and so the plan has Medical Ethics, just as he has Journalistic Ethics.

I was trained by Dr. Lionel Corbett, and swore to the Oath of Hippocrates that year we graduated, myself. So, since 1995, when so many generations of people have entered the web, use the web, play games on the web and all of that, WordPress is the last free “frontier” as it were, on earth. The plan I am developing can be used across any population or culture across the globe, just as WordPress does that. We do not want to have another tragedy like the one at UCSB or at Columbine, nor have teen girls with Suicidal Ideation because of peer pressure and so forth. Consider this tool, as a modern day version of the old Rorschach test, except this one is a whole new deal, because I am designing it. It uses techniques from Art and Narrative Therapy to help assess and treat.

Why I would hope WordPress would say okay? Because what you provide is a place for it, and not only that, the very fact you let people make a free blog. Schools could use this place? For the kids right now, in this immense isolation.

Thank you,

Adrienne D. Wilson


Alma Mater